I just started a  new book "three little words" by Ashley Rhodes. This is a memoir about how Ashley was put through foster care and she had a very rough life. Ashley barely new her mother and from what she remembered about her was that she was very loving and caring to her. But Ashley's mother was not a good person and she was put in jail for many things. Ashley's mom, Lorraine, had two other sons but one of them, Tommy, died as a very young baby and her brother Luke. Since Lorraine was put into jail and so was her husband, she could not take care of her kids anymore so she put them into foster care. At first when Ashley and Luke were put into foster care they had a nice family that kept both of them, but Ashley got to be a 'bad kid' and she was separated from her brother and lived with two other family's. Ashley and Luke visited their mother once and then Lorraine stopped showing up and that made Ashley very upset. Then Ashley and Luke got put back together in the same home with their grandpa and step-grandmother, Adele. Tragically Ashley's grandpa was put in jail and was bailed out and then a couple of weeks later he was shot and killed right in front of Ashley, Luke, and Adele. That is where I am right now in the book.

I think that this book is very interesting and I am surprised that I like it. Normally the types of books that I like to read are Fiction. I like these kind of books because it is nice to take  break from my real life and think about another life of someone else that is not real. This book is a memoir and it is real interesting to know that Ashley Rhodes has actually lived through all that she is writing about. I am excited to read more about her troubled life.

I predict that later on in the book that Ashley will never find a stable home. She has already lived through about 5 homes right now and she is not even 5 yet. I think that Ashley with start to call her step-grandma mom and right when that happens she will be separated from her. Also I think that Ashley and her brother will get separated from each other again and they will grow apart. I think that this will happen because Ashley has already been separated from her brother because her brother is younger and calmer than her.

     The book that I just finished is "If I Stay". At the end of the book it was all very confusing for Mia. Her Grandpa had just told her that it was okay to leave because he knows that it would be hard to live a life without her mom, dad and her little brother. This makes Mia feel really good about her decision of weather she stays or not because she knows that either way she will have people with her and supporting her every decision. Then her best friend Mia comes in and she tells her that even though her Mom, Dad and Teddy all died and she technically doesn't have a family, she still has everyone out in the lobby for her that is her family too. They all care for and love her very much and it is a family even though they aren't all blood related. Then Adam comes in. Her boyfriend that she loves very much, and at first she doesn't want him to come in because she thinks that it will make her even more confused and not know what to do anymore. But she is to weak to get up and walk away, so once he comes in he tells her that he needs her to stay with him because he wouldn't be able to live a life knowing that she wouldn't be in it and she would be missing out on so many things like having a family of her own, even if it isn't with her boy friend. Adam then runs off for a while and and comes back with headphones and he outs them on her ears and she actually hears the music of Yo yo mama that Adam picked out for her. Mia can't stand being like this anymore and she starts seeing her future ahead of her if she stays. I will let you figure out what she decides from there.

     I would recommend this book to anyone weather old or young! This was such a good book and it was hard for me to put it down. It had such a great love connection everywhere throughout everyone. She loved her family so much and she hung out with them all the time. She never got angry with her family or was annoyed by them, she loved them very much and you could tell that from all of the stories she told. She also loved her best friend, Kim, a lot too. Kim brought out the best in Mia and helped Mia make the right decisions. Without Kim Mia wouldn't be the girl that she was in that book Kim helped shape her through all of her tough times, She was always there for Mia and you could feel that love between the two. Lastly, she loved Adam very much, even though Adam and Mia were so so different, their bond and relationship couldn't have been any stronger. Adam shaped Mia into a strong loving girl that he loved very much. I loved Mia and Adam's relationship because even if they end up not together anymore they will still be a big part of each others lives and they will always have a spot for each other in each others heart.

     The book that I will be reading next is "Heaven is for real". I want to read this book because it will be a good change for me. I always read books that are fiction and have a love story in them, I like reading those kind of books because it is nice to take a break from the real world and dream about a life with a cute love story in it. Also fiction made up story's are very interesting to me because they can be what ever the author wants it to be and this makes for a very interesting plot and therefore makes a very good story. The book "Heaven is for real" is a book written about a true story, so i am interesting n seeing if I will like this book or not.

     The book that I am reading is if I Stay what is happening in the book right now is something happened with Mia's body and she had to go into surgery. But she didn't follow her body into surgery she just stayed in the ICU until her body came out. All of these monitors started going off and  these all of these nurses flooded her room and then they took her into surgery, it over whelmed her and she couldn't follow herself with everything that was going on. Once her body came back her whole family could visit her and her Grams and Gramps come in and they just sit down next to her and start talking her her like any regular conversation except for Mia can't respond. Willow is now her nurse because for some reason she doesn't have to be at her old hospital anymore and Mia thinks that that reason is because her brother died and Willow can;t do anything else for him so there is no reason for her to be at her old hospital anymore.

     The way that Gayle Forman has been building suspense in his book is by Mia not being alive and talking to people but she is not dead because she can see everyone around her and she can walk around. This builds great suspense because you don't know what is going to happening to Mia and weather she is going to live or not. It is so hard for Mia right now to figure out what is happening to her because she doesn't know what to do. Mia has got this thought in her brain that she has to decide weather she wants to stay or not,but she doesn't know how to decide or even if she know what she would pick yet. She isn't ready for that decision and that creates a lot of suspense because you just want to know what she is going to chose, weather to stay or not, and how she is going to chose it.

     This is a very effective way to create suspense. It is effective because is it keeping the reader on the hook of wanting to know more. You aren't reeling them in but you are not leaving the rope too loose you are just keeping a little tug onto the rope which is enough to keeping them wanting to know more. You want to know weather Mia is going to stay or not and it is killing me inside to not know. I think that Gayle Forman couldn't have picked a better way to build suspense and I can't wait to know what happens in the end.

The book that I am reading is If I Stay. What is happening in the book right now is Mia just found out that her brother, Teddy, is dead. She figures this out not by actually seeing him dead but because of willow. Willow is a close of Mia's dad because when they were younger Mia's dad's friend Henry dated Willow and she snapped him back into reality by getting him to stop drinking. Willow is also a nurse, and she is now at Mia's hospital, not at her own hospital, and she is still in her nurse clothes that she normally always takes off right after she is done with work. this makes Mia think that since Willow isn't at her own hospital then that means that she doesn't need to be there anymore for some reason. Mia knows that that reason is because Teddy died and she can't do anything more to help him so she came to visit Mia.

This is a really sad part in the book because after that chapter ends Mia starts telling stories about Teddy. She talks about how when her mom was in labor with Teddy she was there throughout the whole thing and when Teddy came out Mia was the first person he saw, and Mia got to cut the umbilical cord. She talks about how there was certain things that only she could do for him like how when he was a baby and got all fussy, Mia was the only one that could calm him down by playing him a song on her cello. Or Mia was the only one that was allowed to read Teddy chapters from Harry Potter every night. Lastly she talked about her magical kiss. Whenever Teddy got hurt only Mia's kisses would calm him down and he would feel a lot better. All of these stories made her realize that she could never give him magical kisses to cure what has happened to him and that Teddy will never get to do anything ever again. Teddy will miss out on everything that Mia has already gone through, and this makes Mia feel like she should have been taken away instead of him.

Since all of this has just happened in the book it makes it hard to predict what is going to happening next. But it also makes me intrigued to find out what she will chose. now that she knows all of her family is gone, does she really want to live a life without the people that she loves most? Or does she want to die and never get to live her unfinished life? She loves the rest of her Family that she has left and she loves her friends and her boyfriend too, so all of that is very hard to leave and i think it is tempting her to want to stay.I am almost done with this book and i am excited to see happens in the end.